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Thursday, November 10, 2005
its been a long long time ever since i've blog... lazy.. so boring... crapp.. just simply staring at the screen. yeaps.. holidays are simply a bore. my dad is applying leave to go holidays. well, maybe i may not go... the news and stuff like thatt. these few weeks or days.. have been quite unlucky. then choir practices. freezing in the cold auditorium. singing and singing. ok.. i sing terribly. i dun dare.. but i still tried my best liao. pitching high notes needs alot of breath. then i scared embarrass....hurr. I WANNA LEARN PIANO! I feel like learning dancing.. too baadd lar ... think i so lucky. do i even have the time?? do i have the talent?? seems like i don't. i have many innermost desires. apparently, i guess it takes another 10 years to learn bahh.. 10 years... 10 YEARS! OR MAYBE A 100 YEARS. ok.. my parents are aruging at these kinda hour... i cant think i duno what the heck i am typing....
its no fairr..so many things happenedd today.. so much. no one cares about me. i have no one to talk to.. maybe blogging. its sooooo unfair.... i feel like crying.. crying.. cryinnggg
my pri5 and 6 basics are lousy... i am facing problems. some one talk to me . can some one cheer me up? wish there was.. i may seemed like a perfect person in front of some people, in fact they don't even know how wrong they were. i'm a person with alot of flaw.
i dun even know WHY i become so forgetful. i cant remember spellings. i cant remember my past. i am angry with alot of stuff almost everyday. i'm like stress.. even during the holidays..
my room is half packed. then my mom is like nagg nagg nagg saying ah.. the cousins all coming to my house on sat. pack ur room pack ur rooooooooMMmMmMmMmMmm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!then today ah some cousins came to my house, GUESS WHAT THEY SAID, "wahh why this room so messy one!?" then i almost!!! burst into a fit of angry ok!!!!!!!!!!!
here's the bad news,
i think i won't be going for the 6brilliance'04 gathering. because, you see. lavinia is my very very very good friend. known her since pri 1 . then we diff class cus her results was much better, i remember that she bought me a keychain from japan and i treasure it alot. still... honestly i lost alot of stuff recently like the christmas card jeanette (pri3) girl gave me last year... i love it. but i brought to school. and i guess i dropped it.......
ok... then we've been thru thick and thin over the years... but all of the sudden she ... is going to leave very soon to florida. i mean FOR 6 MONTHS. then this year , we hardly meet. becus.. no time! her school is like miles away...
- well imagine ... if u've lost a friend.
how would you feeL?
my ecstasy *
11:45 PM
Thursday, July 28, 2005
oh.back to blogging after months of nt blogging lar... i'm too bored...i have nth better to do lar...woah liewx today damn sui lorr...kena scolded by parents...cus of e xi an china duno wad trip lar...i cannot go..i argue eh...then got scolded..then my brother so irritating lorr...hais i dun wanna tok abt this crap anymore...anw no 1 will read this...(: so i can say wadeva i wann....
and ... more abt today...hmm..school is as boring as usual larr...btddennn i duno wad's wrong wif me larxx!!!...people r so irritating me lorr...its like very wadd...bt i m also an irritating person lar...whole day scream here scream there...then i just like have fun throwing bks @ tt idiot lar...or for tt matter i'll shall call them Anonymous...then i sense tt sum ppl angry..bt its nt my falutt..had math and mother tongue test...came unprepared...no 1 will belive wad i say lorr...bt hu cares...i neva do math homework...haha...((: then ipw last wk alrd...cooll...in the end go back to class...ms anbarasi ask me to go 1 love call charmaine..then i go call lor...after tt...mr ng so angry..cus he sscolding the class mah...so i yi shi bu zhi shuo chuo then he call me go away...so damn pai sehh oKAE!!!!!!!!!oh d and t so boring ..hais..poor gillian cut her finger,..ouch...then me and jolene laugh and laugh practically the whole day..cus we r just being crappy larr......
ok...then abt ytd....Poor kaki......ai yox..haha,..nvm i dun wanna tok abt it....sian ahh....
so ssad sia..me and lavinia and gracie llike so long nv keep in touch...celeste and crystal nv come class photo incomplete lor...hais ...i LOST MY INSPIRATION ON WHAT TO TYPE HEERE LORR....I THINK I M DRIFTED AWAY,....
my ecstasy *
9:30 PM
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
"Sugar Rush"
I get a high whenever you're around
Sweeping from my head to my toes
I gotta get my feet back on the ground Cuz you make me go out of my way
Crossing the line making me say what I have in mind
You make me so excited
And I don't wanna fight it
I start to blush You are my Sugar Rush
Ain't nothing better baby
Is it for real or maybe?
I start to blush You are my Sugar Rush
I got a sweet tooth and a taste for you
It might me too obvious butI can't help my self from what I do
Cuz you make me go out of my way
Crossing the line
Making me say what I have in mind
You make me so excited
And I don't wanna fight itI start to blush You are my Sugar Rush
Ain't nothing better baby
Is it for real or maybe?
I start to blush You are my Sugar Rush
Baby you're my Sugar RushI get weak and talk too much
You're the sweetest thing I ever tasted
Baby you're my Sugar Rush
I get weak and talk too much
Cuz you make me go out of my way
Crossing the line
Making my say what I have in mind
You make me so excited
And I don't wanna fight it
I start to blush You are my Sugar Rush
Ain't nothing better babyIs it for real or maybe?
I start to blush You are my Sugar Rush
Baby you're my Sugar Rush
I get weak and talk too much
You're the sweetest thing I ever tasted
Baby you're my Sugar Rush
I get weak and talk too much
You are my Sugar Rush
my ecstasy *
6:23 PM
Sunday, May 22, 2005
PLS DUN BE SOO MEAN 2 ME...I M SOO ..I DUNO LARR...
my ecstasy *
5:30 PM
Saturday, May 21, 2005
i 'm thirteen! (:
saying..cherrio 2 childhood...
hav alwaes treasured u...
-_-"
haha!
welcum teenage fantasy...
facing up 2 new obstacles..
arrrghh mi language is realli terrible..
thx 4 all ur wishes , smses , gifts and all...
love y'all..
although tis yr. b.dae quite plain ...haha...its okae..all in all..its rather enjoyable..
i woke up late..cus'...weather too nice le..lol...drizzling outside...hahas...
receive mi b.day present..whee!~...hahas...although i decided nt 2 buy new hp...or i pod...
i think i m going 2 shop till i drop..wif all mi pals..lol..more fun tt wayy....wow..i received over 15 messages in e morning..lol...i received roughly 30+ smses 2 dae..lol..i duno lar...
then!!!!...when online..whee!~ nv type so much b4..so touched..aww...
ohh i 4 gett..i received gracie's letter when i woke upp..haha..in her letter she wrote a wonderful , sweet poem 4 mii! lol..
here goes...
`if i could make 1 wish;
`and hav that wish come true,
`i'd wish for an angel choir;
`in concert just 4 u.
`but since that cannot be,
`ive wished the next best thing,
`a day so heavenly you will feel
`you r hearing e angels sing.
haha... kkaes..i watch tv 4 like hours..
addicted i guess..lol
then... aft me bro's tution
we went 2 swensen 2 hav dinner..
haha..then bought a mango ice cream cakey
aww..i wannted a tiramisu..
saw @ mos burger ytd wif ruth & kaki..((:
yummie..
oh no..less then 2 hrs...mi b.dae wuld be over..ahhh i will soo miss u...........
ahh..betta faster type ltr,..all of a sudden mi com restart,..took several photos for fun..haha
b4 tt..i fell hard on e floor -ouch..!!!!!!! i shldnt hav done gymnastics...i m not some sorta professionall..or waddsoeva..& i wunt eva do tt again..it realli hurts...
since its some sorta new begining i m going 2 change some of mi attitudes..
1. i m not going 2 scream or overreact
2.i will try 2 be nice 2 ppl
3.i wun be sarcastic
4.i will try not 2 be cold
5.work harrdd...2 achieve mii dreams
6.be more entu-
7.improve mi language
8.hmm..lotsa things 2 mention
things..i can nv let go.-
` primary sch memories..
`primary sch frens..
`every thing tt happened in pri sch
` btw..i did not bear ani grudges...
`since mi dad reformatted e com
all e pics & videos or pri sch hav be formatted...so sadd..
bt all e memories are kept in mi heart..
wishes..
`$$$$
`true frens
`do well in studies
`i used 2 wish 2 be born ltr..bt now i dun..llol
`hmm.........
`duno le..lol
`too much 2 be mentioned..
haha
ani waes..i oso bought twins cd..lol
quite okae lar...
haha...
aww..wendy in malaysia...haha...lavinia..erms..scared her parents dun allow her 2 hang out
` sry 1 joy gals...cant go ice-skating wif y'all then u all hav 2 cancel..
so sry,..
` kkaes..i got nth 2 say le..
NITES!! I LOVE 2 DAE,...MUACKKS...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (:
my ecstasy *
10:25 PM
Friday, May 20, 2005
12 GOING ON 13!!!!
LAST TIME GOING 2 SAY TT!!!
ITS HISTORY!!!
resoultions-
1be a good obedient gal 2 mi parents.
`hmm...tok less in class
`work hard!! AIM 4 E APPLE
` TRUE FRENS..
`EVERY 1 2 HAV 2 RESULTS
`HOLD ON
`6b 2 b reunited
`$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
`life wuld be much fun..& not so bad
tts all...nites..
my ecstasy *
11:41 PM
oh..where was i saying... i hav no idea...bt i rmb sth..i promised 2 posts 3 ...erms..duno wad lar...haha...nvm...last time saying tt i m 12 + tmr i'll be 13 ,..hahas i reali realli realli hopelessly..blissfully...etc etc...seriously...miss 2004...i noe i hav been saying tt...2005 is soo different..i m oso different...i used 2 be a quiet gal..XD bt eva since last yr..i hav been scolded 4 toking too much..hahs..nvm...-i change mi hairstyle..erms..i noe its terrible..bt wad can i do..
-hmm..i realised..i scream alot ...hais...
-trying mi bes not 2 be so cold 2 ppl
-i m oso trying not dun care wad other ppl tink or say abt me,....
- trying not 2 behave so cowardly..
-listening 2 chinese songs...alot i prefer eng songs..
-duno lar
haha...all i can sayy...its tt i m realli confused!! how how how!!! myterious...!!! hmm..-_-"
i hav no idea wads going on..i cant be bothered..i m simply oblivious 2 mi surrondings..
mi eyes..r lik closing ani time,...& guess i type too much le...
omg! i rmb..sry lavinia cant hang out tmr cus hav 2 celebrate me b.dae wif mi family...hais..oh..i duno wad 2 do...on 22nd may got 1joy gals outing..i tink i cant go....cus...i hav 2 attend 2 sth,..& i hav oso made plans earlier..which i totally 4 get...i reallised practically every outing i cant hang out wif u ppl bt..hais...
i realli hav no idea..can sum 1 gimmie a clue!!!
` ice skating nids @ leaast 4 ppl..then hav discount..
`wad if i did not turn up?
`omg...i reallli duno wad 2 do
`will ppl hate mi 4 tis?
omg..i didnt even do well 4 lit,..eng..hais..i duno lar..
basically i m repeating wad i m saying... 4 gett it,..
oh ya...haha i asked several ppl 2 sign ...cus foolscap finish le mahs,...rather not waste e back page..lol..i tink 6b eva did tt b4..ahh SERIOUSLY I DUNO WAD M I SAYING LAR,..I DIDNT SLP IN E AFTERNOOONNN..I TINK I M GOING 2 BED NOW!...ahh...nites!
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10:40 PM
tmr ish mi b.day..yay! i'm turning 13...i m no longer a kid.i will mis those childhood memories..i will keep them savely in mi lil heart..i realli miss those times in pri 6..i miss mi frens e most...i mis 6b...& if u r reading tis now..jus 2 let u noe tt I REALLI MISS Y'ALL...! love y'all...haha...i cant turn back time...oMG..ppl r giving me belated b.dae presents..whereas sum ppl 4 gett..or watsoeva...JUS wanna say a big thank uu...2 y'all...haha ...i m lyk so greedy...-forgive me..maybe too miserable le bahs...
yay i can finally meet lavinia..I MISS HER LOTS kae!!! haha we r going 2 shop till we drop in e whole of singapore...gees..i realised tt i havent updated mi blogg 4 so long i jus cant be bothered bahs...therefore 2 make it up 2 those ppl hu reads mi blog ...erm...i bet no 1 eva reads..if u do..I REALLI APPRECIATE TT!! HAHA!!! aww...u r e best..lol...GUESS WAD...i almost fail lit...& mi chinese ish lik so lousy lor..deproved...i lose 2 alot of ppl kae!!hehees..i tink i jus got 2 much 2 say..lol...omg..i failed english paper 2..watt a disappointment..guess i read not enough books compared 2 last yr...haha i alwaes try 2 challenge gracie & lavinia..& oso pri hav duno wat silient reading...fyi..i was formally a prefect..& i carry out mi dutys well kkae! so i dun hav e time 2 read...bt spenting mi time screaming !! shouting!! punishing!! encouraging!! complaining!! i noe whicheva 1 joyy ppl hu read tis will get realli mad wif mie...bt seriouslly...i prefer 6b..cus i nv felt so left out lor..e ppl r lik so vulgar & i m getting influence i guess..omg...omg..omg...bt e gals r pretty nice...i mean several ppl lar...lol...hehes...life ish so different ..
heyy when wendy & i was toking abt e past... well..so touching u noe...haha toking abt higher mother tongue period..woahh....so farnie...we tried 2 put thumbtack on e teachers chair then..i pretend 2 drp a pen then pick up e thumbtack...then tt time e teacher((sry cannot mention names...`sensitive))) alwaes let us go toliet...haha aft a long dae of workk...ahh lik reall lor i alwaes day dream in class tts y alwaes being called on by teachers 2 ans qn..then i duno how 2 ans...so punishment lorr...almost cried..guess i was too immature bahss...haha ...back 2 e story of e past...wendy saw a wig..not only its a wig on the sink bt a thick , bushy, short..look lik "shit"...no offence..bt seriouslly...she started screaming..then i was there looking so dumbstruck..then broke into a fit of laughter..omg..we alwaes detour in order 2 waste time ..can u imagine aft 1 dae of sch..we had higher mt lessons frm 1pm-3.45pm...u tink we cann take it ar..lol...usually we nv get caught bt on 1 special occasion e teacher told ask not 2 use e toilet where 6b ish...duno wat level lar...haha we purposely use itt..tt was e time we saw e unsightly wig...haha...then wendy was toking wif sum of our frens..haha then she looked up and saw e teachers face ..oh...i forget she is formally know as "shit cake"by all 6brilliance ppls...aww i seriouslly love u all..haha then she got a shock..tis was e part..where we started laughing like madd...omg..i hav 2 eat mi dinner ahh...2 be continued ltr 2nite..so wait up 4 part 2!!!! so sryy..i m going 2 post more then 3 todae..lol
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6:29 PM
Monday, March 28, 2005
I watched the walls around me crumble
But it's not like I won't build them up again
So here's your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts, cause it will end
My tears are turning into time I've wasted
Trying to find a reason for goodbye
I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I'm dreamin' bout you
Honestly, tell me that it's over
Cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right if we're not in it together
Tell me that it's over
And I'll be the first to go
Don't want to be the last to know
I won't be the one to chase you
But at the same time
You're the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
And the more I try to feel, the less I'm whole
My tears are turning into time I've wasted
Trying to find a reason for goodbye
I can’t live without you
Can’t breathe without you
I’m dreamin' bout you
Honestly, tell me that it’s over
Cause if the world is spinning and I’m still living
It won't be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over
And I’ll be the first to go, yeah, I’ll be the first to go
Don’t want to be the last to know (over, over, over)
My tears are turning into time I’ve wasted
Trying to find a reason for goodbye
I can’t live without you
Can’t breathe without you
I’m dreamin' bout you
Honestly, tell me that it’s over
Cause if the world is spinning and I’m still living
It won't be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over
Tell me that it's over, over
Honestly tell me, honestly tell me
Don't tell me that it's over
Don't tell me that it's over
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